yeah. so i think i'm going to stop blogging here because i don't like the username i have. everytime i make a comment on someone's page it's so weird to see it signed off with 'orgaaasmic'. in fact it's very embarassing. hah. that person who created this blog is so different from the person now. i'm so zen. ("p) parts of me are different yet other parts are still the same. like my absent-mindedness/daydreaminess - always lost in my own world. that's still the same. how i can get myself into embarassing situations - that's stayed the same too. the inability to let go - same. the hesitations - same. i'm such a confusing goof. it's no wonder i have never had any real relationships. guys just dont know where they stand with me. i'm the stuck-in-limbo-chick. neither here nor there. says one thing, does another. decisive, indecisive. and anger also seems to be my wall. it's for protection. hah. oh wow, i'm so depressed right now. i'm having my moodswings again. holidays are eating up my brain. seriously. thank god i start work tomorrow. something to get the brain grinding again. an idle mind is the devil's playground. indeed. right. well, this is going to be my last entry here. adios amigos. i'll post up another entry here when i get a new blog (if ever) and i'll still be checking in once in awhile to see how friends are doing. :) | 
